There is a scripture in the bible that says to let your yes be yes and your no be no. I have always only ever considered it from the perspective of keeping your word in order to maintain integrity, and trust from others. This week, however, I realized that to be so authentic is also a vital part of trusting oneself.
Recently I had a conversation with someone who turned the topic from the concern I had raised, to something that they felt I had myself done inappropriately. I suddenly felt hot, as my thoughts began to shift from where my thought process had begun, to replaying and evaluating a process I had gone through the previous week.
I doubted my yes.
Perhaps you don’t struggle with this, but my heart has always been to not only do things well, but to be fair in my assessment of self; open to (constructive) criticism and change. In that, sometimes I can doubt myself and question my own decision making and intelligence to the point of not walking in full confidence.
As we grace one another, we need to grace ourselves.
The most remarkable thing I have learned about the bible as an adult, is that the list of rules I thought an insurmountable task to obey, does not exist. Rather, there is a bounty of instructions as to how to live a life of fullness, joy, prosperity and peace. God is not angry when we dismiss His words, but rather sad, as us parents can become, when words of instruction and wisdom fall by the wayside.
We don’t always have to understand the “why,” to reap the benefit.
So this week, walk in confidence. Make a conscious decision to be thoughtful in your processes, then stand by them, knowing you worked it out to the best of your ability with the information you had at the time. Own your yes. Stand by your no. This, is the beginning of integrity.