catch up

I have a Facebook friend from college that I used to date. I love Facebook – it’s been fun catching up with old friends. And yet sometimes that feeling in the pit of my stomach reminds me of those awkward and sometimes painful friendships in my past. Some days I am genuinely happy for the love that others have found, and yet other days, I wonder what was wrong with me that I wasn’t enough for that person.  It’s amazing how negativity attracts more negativity… I find that when I am feeling insecure, past situations/hurts come to my memory, compounding those feelings even more. It’s easy to look at another person’s life and believe that theirs is more fulfilled, but at the end of the day, we are all on our own journeys and nobody’s life is perfect. The bible says to “take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ.” God is love, Christ came to fulfill that love. God has “not given us a spirit of fear but of power, and of love and a sound mind.” When we choose to linger on a failure or disappointment, there are a dozen other memories that will happily flood in to join us in our pity party. But, when we keep our eyes on the blessings in our lives, on the gifts God has given us and the growth He has brought us to, the negativity has no room and His peace abounds. 

So today I think I might just stay away from memories, people, and thoughts, which might add to my feelings of inadequacy, and set my heart on the beauty that lives in my home and heart. And catch up with old friends tomorrow…

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