This past week I have experienced a couple of milestones which have brought me to a place of introspection. At this point in the game, watching my older two children approaching adulthood, I find reflection to come more frequently. My past experiences, failures, triumphs, and tragedies, all swirl around in my mind at the most unexpected of moments; dancing in and out of my conversations and alternating minutes.
I remember my mom when she was how old I am now. Being a teenager, knowing “everything,” and being in the middle of my own hormonal jungle, it was not always easy, if not impossible, for me to relate to my mom. Upon reflection, having the awareness I do now and the wisdom that has come with age and experience, I am amazed at how well she insulated myself and my siblings from the sometimes insurmountable pain and struggle she lived with daily.
Now in that same season, and having walked a little bit different road (but with some striking similarities), I marvel at how well adjusted and whole my children are. And, hesitate in my feelings of perceived success. To be perfectly honest, it’s only by the grace of God I still stand, only by His faithfulness my children have blossomed into the people they are becoming.
I think I would encourage anyone in a state of chaos, indecision, pain or loss, to walk this life out in faith. To take everything to God in prayer. To stand strong in personal conviction and to do your best to not retaliate or let bitterness take root. Let forgiveness reign. I am aware of my limitations, but even more aware of how strong and reliable my God is in those limitations. It is in my experience that only in walking out a life of true humility, faith, and obedience is God able to redeem those things which would otherwise be lost.
Please be encouraged today to keep fighting the good fight of faith. Please don’t give up. On yourself, or on Him. Life is a marathon, not a sprint. God has given you everything you need to flourish in the life, and season, you are in, whether it feels that way today or not…